2 Timothy 2:22-26

22So flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness, faith, love, and peace, along with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart.
23Have nothing to do with foolish, ignorant controversies; you know that they breed quarrels.
24And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil,
25correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth,
26and they may come to their senses and escape from the snare of the devil, after being captured by him to do his will.

The world has given me scares, it has made me go as far as hating someone. That is not the way God or Jesus want, the love us and are kind and gentle to us. In order to be close to God we must reflect the same. That is what to think of when someone does you wrong or hurts you, remember to react as if it were God that you were speaking to. Show the world kindness and love, that is a desperate need of that kind of reaction. That is the difference you have been asking God to use you for, to show kindness and love.